Being Mama, for now.

A friend of mine posted a picture today of her Charlie Brown type table Christmas tree with the caption "Simplifying Christmas this year". This almost instantly made me long for the day when the craziness of having 5 young ones under my roof will be gone and I can "simplify my Christmas". Almost immediately after having this thought I realized that it was an awful way to think about it. I don't want to wish my children's childhood away just because I want a quiet house. I need to embrace it while I can because time is fleeting. I have a very limited amount of years to help cultivate these little souls. Now I just need the stamina!


Luke 2:15 When the angels left them and went back to heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let us go over to Bethlehem  and see this thing that has taken place, that the Lord  has made known to us.” 2:16 So they hurried off and located Mary and Joseph, and found the baby lying in a manger.  2:17 When they saw him, they related what they had been told about this child, 2:18 and all who heard it were astonished  at what the shepherds said. 2:19 But Mary treasured up all these words, pondering in her heart what they might mean.  2:20 So the shepherds returned, glorifying and praising  God for all they had heard and seen; everything was just as they had been told. 

^{I love in these verses how it says that Mary "pondered these things, wondering what they could mean". I can relate to that! I feel like I am always  wondering what people mean by what they are saying. One of my friends recently told me that she can tell when I speak that I am weighing my words before I say them. I knew I did this but I didn't realize I was so transparent. Honestly I do like to talk, but I want it to matter. Plus I've gotten into trouble many times for not thinking before I opened my mouth.}